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I know, I have been marginalized...but this is a great place to put all this meme crap [27 Mar 2005|07:17pm]
You scored as Indie. Indie.






Indie Rock


Classic Rock.


Punk and Pop Punk.


Emo & More










Hip Hop and Rap




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Satan is my master...he buys my metallica records for me [26 Mar 2005|07:26pm]
You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.




















Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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Light up the dark night and warm the cold, cold day [01 Mar 2005|02:19am]
In a world that seems to have infinitely more black letter days than red letter days on the horizon, an immeasurable number of unsolved problems and so few solutions, and a billion people who are too stubborn to change their ways to live more fully, what are we to do? Never stop loving everyone.

And so I write my first entry of the new year unhindered by sadness.

What have I learned?

I'm okay with living for the little things. That's the only way to live, otherwise the big things will never come. Starting small is the only way to ever go big.

So tell me, how do you plan to do your part?
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[01 Jan 2005|12:37am]

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New Year's Eve [31 Dec 2004|01:41am]
The music's loud in your room,
Turn it down. There's a neighbor
Who can't take it anymore.

I'll take your hand,
In another one night stand
There's a lot for us to figure out.

So this is how it ends.
Oh, lock the door behind you then,
Let me down easy.

The music's loud in your room,
Turn it down. But the more we talk,
The less we understand.
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Top 40 reasons to listen to NOFX, listed alphabetically [04 Dec 2004|07:46pm]

All of Me
All Outta Angst
Anarchy Camp
August 8th
Bleeding Heart Disease
Bottles to the Ground
Champs Elysees
Don't Call Me White
Eat the Meek
Flossing a Dead Horse
Franco Un-American
Freedom Lika Shopping Cart
Idiots Are Taking Over
Johnny Appleseed
Kill All The White Man
Monosyllabic Girl
Murder the Government
Re-gaining Unconciousness
Separation of Church and Skate
She's Nubs
Straight Edge
Stranger than Fishin'
Thank God It's Monday
The Brews
The Decline
The Idiot Son of an Asshole
The Irrationality of Rationality
Theme From A NOFX Album
Timmy the Turtle
Together On the Sand
What's The Matter With Parents Today?
Whoops, I OD'd
You Drink, You Drive, You Spill

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Back in Ames after a restful week [27 Nov 2004|03:59am]
[ mood | christmas lights, clove cigarettes, and hopefulness ]

I had a good break. I even wrote a song, while merrily high-spirited on Jagermeister. Enjoy!

Untitled #1

what once was
or what once wasn't
or what maybe should have been

in the land of unconscious others
in the land of our brothers
we strove long and hard for the day
that we can see everyone together in one way

for the peasants who never run
round the castle with things to shun
for the guys who can't go out
and get a date, our hearts are out

for when the bluebird
sings out his song
the devil may carry a mighty pitchfork
but the one who is called upon will do all the work

ladies say ladies say
that the man on high throne must be the one
and the ones far down below
are just the ones to forgo
for the ones way down below
are just the ones they must forgo

and the love of the land
isn't enough for just one man
and the love of another
isn't love enough for our brother

in the land of unconscious others
we will struggle and we will cover
ourselves up like the wind
for out time will never end
and the days will go astray
with great mystery and mistique

for today i run away
past the ushers and the faceless
and the nameless hordes of drones
to the valley down below
with the rushes and the sparrows
down below
where we sing until tomorrow
where we sing for the present
where we sing until we perish

in the land of the many
in the land of the plenty
that is where i go to now
that is where i stay forever
that is where i find another
to live with each other
and all is well

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Angst? [16 Nov 2004|02:01pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Wow, this week is the superbusy! I will be so happy if I get a C in Cpr E 210, but I don't know how I'm going to do that. I really think that's my only real problem in life right now, because everything else is looking up. I wish there were more professors who taught things instead of foreigners who lecture over things and don't really teach anything because they don't know what teaching is. Reading a powerpoint to a class in super broken English is not the way to teach. I pray for the best because a terrible grade in that class means my mom will hate me forever. Grr. Showertime.

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hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...walrus? is that you? [15 Nov 2004|09:29pm]
[ mood | drained ]

Tip of the day: if you don't like your current friends, find new ones!
It works!

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[13 Nov 2004|04:34pm]
[ mood | alone ]

People you love
Will turn their backs on you
You'll lose your hair
Your teeth
Your knife will fall out of its sheath
But you still don't like to leave before the end of the movie
People you hate will get their hooks into you
They'll pull you down
You'll frown
They'll tar you and drag you through town
But you still don't like to leave before the end of the movie
No you still don't like to leave before the end of the show
People you hate will get their hooks into you
They'll pull you down
You'll frown
They'll tar you and drag you through town
But you still don't like to leave before the end of the movie
No you still don't like to leave before the end of the show

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Help me [09 Nov 2004|08:00pm]
Note to self: It's probably the caffeine pills, but staying up for two days makes the stomach turn into battery acid. But soft serve ice cream helps...so does anything basic. In fact, if Drano weren't toxic, it would work very well. I'm not a chemist, though, so I know little about such reactions. I am seriously worried about my grade in Cpr E 210. It started out easy. I blew off the first test. Second test was impossible. The final will probably be even more impossible. All I can do now is study, study, study over break and hope to pass. Yay.
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( ) [06 Nov 2004|02:49pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

I had a dream last night. I found someone. She wasn't perfect in any certain way, but she was very human. She liked me and I liked her. We spent a few hours driving around some countryside I had never seen, just looking out the windows at everything we passed by. But then it got dark, and she disappeared. And there I was, alone.

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I like fanatics [03 Nov 2004|05:06pm]
warning: you may be offended, but hopefully you'll laugh
the reason why Bush wonCollapse )
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[03 Nov 2004|03:58pm]
[ mood | shocked ]

Only Sìgur Ros can convey the deep sadness i feel in my heart today. Half of this great nation of ours cares nothing about the really important issues facing the world today. That makes me sad. Very sad.

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Laugh, cry, live [01 Nov 2004|03:23am]
[ mood | 400mg of caffeine pills ]

If you have 7 minutes of free time and a decent internet connection, watch the video for Vaka.


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Life. [30 Oct 2004|01:37pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Lunch. Homework. Dinner. Sleep. Repeat.

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so much for sleeping more [30 Oct 2004|02:27am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

The last two weeks have been a blur. Actually, everything since the end of august has been a blur. I have nothing left to do now, so I will write.

I just took a walk out to towers. It's really really windy. It is so windy I cannot remember the last time I have witnessed wind like this in Iowa. Iowa is not usually a very windy place. God is angry at Iowa. But also pleased, because wind and chilly weather makes it perfect for open-windowed sleeping. There are a plethora of cop cars and drunks dressed in halloween costumes. Really, I saw the cops just stop in the middle of the street, get out of the car, and get someone for alcohol posession. I thought another fucking riot was going to break out. It was unbelievable. I even saw one drunk guy dressed up as a Marlboro box. That's passion. I strive to be a professional drunk who doesn't wander around the streets of campustown looking like an idiot after they've had too mcuh. Maybe that's why I'm not drinking? No, wait, the reason I'm not drinking is because I don't have any friends and nobody will buy booze for me to drink whilst alone. I'm disappointed in myself, not because of anything I've done, but because I've habitually wasted so much time. Tomorrow is another day. Come waste your time with me.

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It's that time again [28 Oct 2004|08:28am]
[ mood | lethargic ]

I haven't slept right in about two and a half weeks. I have found that I can make it for about 30-40 hours on about 4-5 hours of sleep. It's not a lot of fun, but it's doable, and that's all that counts. I really am starting to worry about how I'm doing in classes, even though over half the points are still up in the air in every one of my classes. In fact, that makes me even more worried and makes me sleep less, and since I know I can function on practically no sleep, I keep forcing myself awake, taking caffeine pills, and feeling generally stressed out. If only I were productive during my sleepless binges, but I'm not. I just sit around for hours trying to do homework, being distracted, and worrying. I must force myself to go to the library more when I have stuff that can be done completely computerless.

I also came up with a tentative schedule for spring, if I make it to spring. It includes me having class at 8am every day of the week. Wow. 8am. I haven't done that since the early part of high school...I hope it doesn't hurt too much. It'll give me an excuse to not sleep, become really addicted to coffee, and go to bed at 6pm every day :) Yeah, right. In a perfect world, there would be no homework, and we would learn everything quickly and easily in fun labs.

My plan for today is to stay awake as long as possible...then go to bed around 5pm, sleep til around 3am, do more homework, go to class, and then maybe alternate doing homework and partying. It's Halloween, after all. Gotta take a break from barely keeping up with school sometime.

It's been foggy and grey outside for about a week now. It reminds me of how New England looks this time of year...especially in the early morning when you can barely see the campanile because the fog is everywhere. That is always the coolest because it makes the boring plainness of Iowa somehow seem more interesting. I can always use a little more interesting in the daily grind.

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Wisdom [25 Oct 2004|10:47pm]
JennyComp05 (4:20:25 PM): people always suck
JennyComp05 (4:20:36 PM): and you just learn to deal
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my favorite flavor, cherry coke [24 Oct 2004|03:30am]
[ mood | she broke away, broke away ]

This was a damn good week. Three all-nighters, not a single day of feeling sorry for myself, improved awareness of the world around me, and simplification of outlook on life. Plus I just saw clockwork orange on the big screen and had a gyro from the gyroman, who rocks.

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